(1.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
she asked me
to draw a self portrait<\/p>\n\n\n\n
on a plastic sheet on the floor<\/p>\n\n\n\n
how fitting
that i should crawl
to meet myself somewhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(though i do wonder
how best to depict
the inside of our tears?)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(2.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
every attempt
at this transplant
the canvas rejects<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i am a creature
of smudges<\/p>\n\n\n\n
my edges:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a no man’s land.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i am but
an elephant path
to a dead end<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(always a dead end.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(3.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
there<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lives last
but an hour<\/p>\n\n\n\n
there
i am but a museum
of crumpled poems<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i am but
the word<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lost
and found<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and lost<\/p>\n\n\n\n
again<\/p>\n\n\n\n
amid
ephemeral eternities
of words.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(i was stolen from my own body as a child.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– And how do you deal with that?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
First, you try to inhabit others.
But after a while you just make due with being no one.
You become just an absence, a recipient of force.
yes…
i am just a recipient of force.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That is my self portrait.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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