will you please
just permit me
to feel out of place?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to perform these rituals
of sacred self extinction
alone?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
you see, I
suffer
from these
bouts
of sentience<\/p>\n\n\n\n
where I spill out
over
the edges
of this fiction<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and suddenly
I am
running out of skin
to build a home
to wrap my bones in<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and suddenly
I am
chewing my nails
down to the cuticles
to see just how much of me
is dust today<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and suddenly
I am
only a vessel<\/p>\n\n\n\n
for my shadow’s wanderlust
and everything
once framed so neatly
within the saturnine halo
of a shadow’s diurnal orbit
is set free at dusk<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and yet none but I
ever break away
from the horizon<\/p>\n\n\n\n
none but I
ever tip the waiter for the rain
in diamonds dug
from tear ducts so benumbed<\/p>\n\n\n\n
none but I
ever sow sunflower seeds
hoping they imprint on the moon instead<\/p>\n\n\n\n
none but I
ever envies death<\/p>\n\n\n\n
for her shapeless intimacy<\/p>\n\n\n\n
none but I
ever drown in the nectar
that the dreamcatchers bleed<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and suddenly
I am dying
all the deaths you dreamt for me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
dressed in skin and shadows once again<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and suddenly
I am dying
all the deaths you dreamt for me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
dressed in skin and shadows once again<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and suddenly
I am dying
all the deaths you dreamt for me <\/p>\n\n\n\n
dressed in skin and shadows once again<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and if I could have been a thought
perhaps it may have wondered<\/p>\n\n\n\n
why so much of the sheer madness
of our hearts
wishes to go squandered
on those that are happier
to live unloved.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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